Circle of healing for T-Man

Athena's horse T-Man is on stall rest now, after getting a cracked pelvis and a big hematoma.  We converted the run-in shed in his pasture into a stall, so he can see his girls and not get too lonely, since he may be there for several months. 

I have been doing Reiki on him every day, to try and help him heal well and faster.  I also put protections on his stall.  I had done something similar with my wife's mare Dear One, when she was doing poorly, with assistance from Spider and Oak.  This was a somewhat different situation, since I was less concerned with keeping out bad influences than in concentrating beneficial ones.  Athena had also gotten me a new rattle, which I used for the first time.  It is a beautiful Raku rattle, with lovely iridescent copper-matte glaze, about the size of my palm.  It is decorated with some tiny colored raku beads strung on rawhide.  It has a rich, soft, earthy sound.

I started at the corner post at the gate entrance, and opened up to the energy, and called for help and assistance from Spider, Oak, Swallow, the Green Man, and any other benevolent forces that could aid me.  The response was positive but sluggish, so I tried using the rattle to aid in the calling, shaking it my hand in three groups of three while calling.  I got a much stronger response, including energy from the Green Man and from the Indian spirit teacher who has danced with me recently.  Together, we sank an energy well at the corner post, and drew up a column of strong, warm energy into the post.  I started around the stall clockwise (sunward), shaking the rattle gently and drawing a thick rope of vibrant energy around to the next post; where we again sank another well, anchoring the rope and starting a new one.  I continued around the stall until I returned to my starting point and anchored it again at the post.  This left the stall guarded by four columns of rich earth-sky energy at the four corners, surrounded by a thick warm circle of energy that draw in blessings and healing power.  I thanked all who helped me, and left knowing that T-Man was well protected.

A gift of names

A spirit journey tonight, after a very full week.  No particular goal in mind, it just felt right to take one.

The Harvest Moon was out, glowing silver.  As I walked through the woods, I worked on opening my heart.  Gradually the woods lightened and I could see green leaves on the trees around; not full light, but it was steady.  I think I am making progress.

In the clearing, the sun was shining.  I walked up to the Oak, and embraced it, thanking it for the strength and help it has given me.  Spider and Swallow appeared also, and I thanked them each for the special help and gifts they have been giving me recently.  My wife struck her head recently and after returning from the hospital I was trying Reiki on it.  I asked Spider to help knit the flesh together again and to help it heal cleanly, and I felt a definite response; I know Athena felt it too because she immediately said "Ow!" :)

Oak said that he was glad to give me his strength; he then leaned down and placed a nut in my hands.  It looked delicious and I ate it.  Then I asked what it was, and Oak said that is was strength for me to have when I needed it.

I walked over to the stream, running swift and clear.  The water tasted cold and wonderful, and I also laved my face and head with it.  It was so refreshing! 

Then I turned to my guides and asked them if there was anything they could tell me.  Spider spoke, saying that I should look around me and see where the threads of my life were, that I needed to stay aware of who and what I had included in my web and to keep them in my heart to stay in balance.  I looked around and there were many heart-threads from me to Athena, my son, my daughter, and others in my life.  It was all part of a large web that was beautiful and elaborate, that we all spun together by caring and reaching to each other.  Spider told me to keep aware of this, and know that I needed to be a dependable anchor for my threads, and that I could also get support and comfort from these threads; that we are all balanced in a web of love, helping each other.

As I looked at the threads that lead to my son and daughter, my guides said that it was time I gave (or learned?) their names.   They appeared to me as subtle concepts, and with a little work and help I determined that they should have this form:
My daughter is Aurora Lucidus Animi, Dawn of the Heart of Fire.
My son is Cercatore Filodoro, Seeker of the Thread of Gold.

(BTW, Spider promised to bind these names in safety and Oak to secure them within his arms, so that they cannot be used for their harm.)

After thanking them all, I left the clearing, returned to the sea, and awoke.

Healing the itchies

Well, its been a while since I posted.  Life has a way of getting very complex!  I am trying to get back on my path, and take some time again for personal growth

Last week, Athena got a very bad case of itchy bug bites, possibly chiggers.  I got a few, but she got a lot and the itching was driving her crazy.  She asked me to use Reiki to help.  I gave it a try, and asked for help from Oak and Spider in getting the poison out of her.  I felt them help; Oak seemed to have an affinity with the malady and was able to counter some of the irritation, and Spider cast her web to try and catch the poison and drag it out.  I also set up a circular circuit of energy into her ankle and back out into my hand, where I could catch and hold it it briefly and then dispose of it.  Athena reported an intense feeling of energy, and I just pulled as hard as I could.  I felt a lot of bad energy come out, cold and tingly.  She said that it felt much more comfortable, and it continued to improve over the next several days.

Melanomas - yuck

Athena's horse Hep has a lot of melanomas.  They are common with grey horses; they are not like human melanomas.  They are swollen hard lumps varying from dime- to quarter-sized.  They proliferate across the skin, but generally don't invade organs.  They are considered inoperable: if you remove them, they come back faster and bigger.  Received wisdom is that they are largely harmless and there is nothing you can do about them.  Hep's are all over his rear and sheath, and almost certainly up into his colon.
Athena has just started a new herbal supplement specifically for melanomas.   She asked me to use Reiki to get a feel for how the melanomas have spread, and to encourage them to break up.

Hep was very jittery about letting energy into that area, and kept moving around -- his usual thing.  He settled some after a minute and I concentrated on really soaking the energy into and around the melanomas.  After a few minutes, I really made contact -- I could sense them all through is lower gut.  As I poured energy into them and pushed at them, I could really feel them -- like big lumps all over my arms.  I didn't let them move up past my forearms, but just used the opening to really hit them with energy and told them to break up.  I also asked Hep to tell them to go away and reject them.  In a moment I felt a huge wave of heat move through the area, and I think the melanomas responded.  I don't expect them to just drop off, but hopefully they will start to gradually shrink.

When I felt them on my arms, I considered trying to 'draw' them out of Hep into myself where I could cast them away, something I have done in the past with aches and pains.  But I could tell that they were much to strong for this, and that if I really pulled them into me I could be in danger.  So I set firm limits on what I would allow into me, accepting the awareness of them but refusing any essense or tainted energy.  Instead, I kept the focus of pushing healing energy out, and sending the melanomas away.

Time will tell if the supplements and/or the Reiki will help him.  We will keep working!

Opening the Heart

On our ES vacation, Athena and I spent some time working together on some spiritual goals. One night, we did some meditation exercises together, from the book “Inner Reiki”. They revealed something that neither of us had quite realized: I am very easy about giving, but it difficult for me to receive. We talked over this over the next day or two, and it is illuminating about many things in our life together.

The next day, I had an appointment at Healthworks, for a ‘Journey’, which is a 1.5 hour session of light massage, aromatherapy, and energy work (Reiki, cranial-sacral work, and other modalities) with a wonderfully talented massage therapist who is very skilled with energy work and intuitive healing. It was wonderful! But when she hit my heart chakra, she surprised me my saying that I have a lot of shields around my heart. We talked, and decided that the shields are what are stopping me from being able to receive. She said that she understood, that she also found giving very easy and receiving hard.

She worked with me to open up my heart. She placed her hand on my back on the heart chakra, and told me to feel it, and sense the edges of her hand. Then she said to enlarge the area, and try and feel her hand ½ an inch further out; then 2 inches further out. It took some effort, but it did open up noticeably. I will have to keep working on it.

A checkin with Hephaestus

Athena asked me to do a good thorough checkup on our horse Hephaestus, since he has been getting a lot of attitude recently and been very squirmy and dont-touch-me.  The problem with Hep is that whenever I ask him what is going on, he just says "What? I don't know. I feel fine.".  Her suggestion was to NOT ask him the explain or describe anything, but just to do a good Reiki overall check and see if his body could tell me anything.

He has good strong energy that moves pretty well.  The first signal I got was over his flanks and rear end: kind of itchy and twitchy feeling.  It was not in his digestive system (which felt fine).  I finally narrowed it down to his private areas and his rear.  He is due for a sheath cleaning anyway (oh joy) so maybe this will help him feel better; but I suspect that his melanomas are part of the problem.  He has them all over that area, and received wisdom is that they are inoperable but harmless.  But they surely don't feel good.

His legs also feel vaugely achy.  Not the joints, but the long bones and muscles.  A little like when you get the aches from the flu?  Thats one reason he keeps shifting his weight and stretching out his legs, it feels better.

So no real answer.  We are trying to decide what supplements to give him next, hopefully something will help him feel better.

Lots of AC practice

 Athena, my wife, has been shopping on the Internet for a new horse a lot lately.  I have been getting a lot of practice with doing quick long-distance AC probes, to see what a horse is like!   It is getting much easier to use a few photos to open up a link quickly and get a reading on what kind of horse it is, what they like and dislike, are they smart or not-so-smart, calm or spooky, etc. 

I quickly found that I don't like using the normal Reiki distance-healing symbol to make the contact.  I find it cumbersome, overly complex, and impossible to memorize.  So instead I have started asking Spider to help, since one of Spider's gifts is communiciation (making connections, bridging gaps).  So I open my gates, raise my energy, then visualize a big spinnerette shooting out a long strand of fine, strong silk from my mind to the heart of the horse in the picture.  I can feel it unwinding through a great distance, and then contact opens just as if the horse was next to me.  

This 'spider-silk' distance connection has become easy to do, and very effective.  And it is much easier than memorizing a long string of Japanese characters that I don't understand anyway!

I find it continually fascinating how much of a strong sense of individuality I get from these quick readings.  Each horse feels like a different person, with attitudes, likes, and responses that may be completely different that another horse who looks very similar.  I don't feel like I am 'planning' or 'projecting' these feelings, otherwise why would the results I get surpise me so often?

A second visit with Spider and Swallow

I went on a short spirit journey again tonight.  It has been a tumultuous week, and I am very tired; but I am going to set down what happened now while it is fresh in my mind.

I used the same technique as before.  The sky this time was cloudy, with ast moving patches of dark clouds.  The light is grayer and dimmer, almost like twilight.  Sometimes I can see the sun, lower in the sky.  Sometimes I see the bright full moon – the silvery light/shadow seems to touch everything.
  

In the clearing is the tree.  It seems larger this time, with a fuller crown.  I embrace it, and thank it for helping me.  I put both hands on the trunk and let the Reiki energy flow in and out.  I feel its goodwill, and know that it is always there with support and strength for me.

I look around.  The Green Master is not in evidence.  After a moment I become aware that the spider is here though.  I see her on a low branch of the tree that extends over the stream.  She appears very clearly, a small black spider walking on the branch.  I ask if she was the spider that walked over my horse’s bandages this morning; she says yes.  She makes no promises of the future, but tells me that she is doing well now, that she is strong, and that what we are doing now is the right course for her at this time.

A moment later I see her walking out over the stream on the branch.  She is carrying a large shining white egg sack.  I am a little concerned, I find egg sacks kind of creepy and worry that a million baby spiders are going to core crawling out (ick!).  The spider tells me not to be silly and calm down.  After a few moments I get control of myself and stop trying to guess/force what is going to happen, and just try to sit back, watch, and learn.  She flicks it into the air over the water, and it releases thousands of tiny white balloonist spiders, floating on tiny gossamer threads into the air.  The breeze takes them out over the grass to the forest, and over the forest.  Many land in the grass or in the trees, several land in my tree.  Once they land, I cannot see them but I know they are there.

These are not her bodily children, this is a lesson she it teaching me.  My first understanding of it is this: the world around me is filled with life.  No matter where I am, there are tiny living things near which share this life with me, and can help me if I ask with an open heart.  I am never alone, never separated from the web of life around me.  I feel there is more for me to learn, but for now I put the image in my heart for later.

Now I look up and the bird is flying down from the tree. He is circling around the trunk and coming down towards me, crying “News!  News!  I have news!”  As he comes close, I ask what news.  He says that he carries news and stories all over the world, from place to place.  Anything he hears he carries to his friends and it spreads outward.  This is what he wants me to know: Any kind word, or generous act, spreads out through the world like ripples on a pond, touching everyone.  This is what ties the world together: kind thoughts and deeds given freely without thought of return.

At this I see the second meaning of the spider’s act.  The tiny children of our spirits, our wishes, hopes, and dreams, must be set free into the world to land where they will.  They must not be held too close, or protected too much, but must be free to travel the wind and make their homes where they will.  If they go freely into the world with our love, then they will freely return that love to us in ever new and surprising ways.

I thank them all very much, what wonderful gifts they have given me today.  I walk back down the path, and awake.

Help from the Green Man

My wife's horse is doing better, her abscess broke out and drained on Sunday. On Wednesday she had told me that it would break out over the weekend, and she was right :D. The circle of protection helped, I think. I charged it up again several times. It was interesting; from inside I could pour in more energy, but from outside I could not touch the energy, I could only touch the barrier and strengthen it. I left it open at the top and bottom to draw earth-energy and heaven-energy for her. She said that it helped her feel better, especially on Saturday when there was a horse show on the premises and lots of strange people going by.

Also on Friday the spiders I had asked for help suggested a web symbol for her hoof, which I used. I don't know what it did, I don't think there was a lot of power in it, but it was offered with kindness and much appreciated. I think it was intended to help catch and cast out the infected tissue. I used to be very frightened of spiders, but since I started communicating with them my fear is almost gone and I have a lot of respect for them and try to treat them well.

On Monday I had a strange experience.

Monday morning my wife's horse was walking much better, but then she coliced. (Colic is an intense intestinal pain, often caused by a blockage. In horses, it can be deadly). We called the vet and while we were waiting we were madly walking her back and forth (she can't be allowed to roll, she could twist her gut). She was in a lot of pain. I was walking beside her doing all the Reiki I could do. The Cho Ku Rei worked well, I was getting a lot of power, but it wasn't enough. I tried the distance-healing symbol, directing the energy back in time to early in the morning just before the blockage formed; trying to reduce its effects or disrupt the formation so that it would break up more easily in the present. I couldn't quite remember the symbol, but I remembered what it felt like to use it, so I did my best to recreate that and I could feel it working. Within a 30 seconds she had calmed down, and was in much less distress. She was still having discomfort, but not nearly so bad. 

She was worn out, and laid down. This is a danger time, because if she starts to roll she can really hurt herself. I sent out a call for anything that could help her, and on impulse asked for help from the Green Man (which I had been reading about online the day before). The image of the Green Man is one that has always felt significant to me. I immediately felt a very large flux of power coming in from all around, that felt like a green wave. I channeled it into her and she relaxed. It kept flowing for a few minutes and I let it flow into her, and as it tapered off she began to look better. She sat quietly without trying to roll. The vet arrived a few minutes later and gave her a muscle relaxant, and she was soon eating grass and feeling much better.

She is back to normal now (although tired) and the vet says there is no sign of a blockage. She thinks it may have been gas, which can happen when a horse is stressed. That could be (and we are treating her accordingly). But a part of me wonders if sending the energy back in time didn't un-make the blockage? I don't really know what happed, but I am very glad that I could help her. I am especially glad that help came to me when I needed it.

After my Level 2 class

The Reiki level 2 class with was wonderful.  I have been using the symbols with my wife's horse a lot this week; she is in a lot of pain with (I think) a hoof abscess that is trying to break out. The Cho Ku Rei is very effective, and really ramps up the energy level. Yesterday, after settling her in her stall for the night, I tried to lay a ring of protection and healing around the stall and fill it with energy for her – it was a sudden impulse and the symbols to use just came to me and seemed right. Assistance from my guides? That is what it felt like. What an exciting journey! I also asked the moon and several spiders, who were watching, to watch over her and help her.

Starting out

I am starting this new blog to record my thoughts and experiences as I start out in earnest on a new road. In the past couple of years, I have started learning energy healing and animal communication, primarily for working with my wife's horses. I received Reiki level 1 training, and my wife got me a wonderful book "Learning Their Language". Last month I got my Reiki level 2 certification. Experimenting with these techniques, and exploring my own intuitions, led me to the decision to try and open up communication with the "others" that I have at times felt around me, helping me.

These other presences I feel could be spritual guides, guardian spirits, angels, ghosts, dream images from my subconcious, Jungian archetypes, self delusions, I don't know. To a certain extent it doesn't matter: I feel that paying attention to them and trying to learn from them will help me grow personally and spiritually. This journal will record my experiences as I try to do this.

I will set out now. I don't know where the path will lead, but I have miles to go.