I decided that I needed to ask for some guidance, if there is anything I should do now about the situation. Should I be looking for a new job? Hunker down and ride it out? Working overtime? Wait and see? I am too worried and confused to decide, so I will take a spirit journey and see what my guides have to say.
It starts well, it is a cold clear night there, very dark but with a brilliant moon just past full. Lots of very dark shadows and dazzling silver gleams. On the way up the path through the woods, I become aware of a group of animals on the side of the path. There a number of small animals, it is hard to make them out. A badger? A bobcat? Plus squirrels, chipmunks, mice, assorted birds. Also suggestions of a human figure, in a feathered costume. Maybe a bear in the background. They are all in the dark, with just glimmers visible.
I stop to talk with them, and ask them if there is anything I need to do for them. I was just reading of someone else's journey, where they negotiated about an offering. Should I be making any particular offerings? They respond that each person finds the way that works best for them, that there are many paths and modes of relating to the spirit world. Some people find a traditional framework of offerings or rituals beneficial or even essential, but for others this would not work. I should just listen to my heart to see if there is anything I need to do. However, not that I mention it, I HAD made a promise to the Greenman several months ago to get a plaque and hang it at the barn, in gratitude for his help. I still have not done this. They explain that it is not that anyone is angry or hurt about this, but that it is an unfulfilled promise and that it will burden me and interfere with my progress. I recommit to obtaining the plaque soon, and they allow me to move on.
When I arrive at the meadow, the Tree is there close by. He immediately reaches down a large knarled hand and clasps my hand, in a very firm and reassuring grip. He pours lots of comfort and energy into me; I relax and let the fear drain out and let the healing energy fill me. I feel very comforted and loved. I spend several minutes just soaking in this, letting it heal me and wash out negative energy.
Then I ask the Tree, and anyone else who is listening, if there is anything I should do about my work situation. Spider responds by giving me a blast of energy, that makes me feel light and happy, enlarged and powerful, but my feet remain planted in the earth. I gather that this means that I can stay where I am, that the situation will be healed and we will grow and prosper again. Part of me is suspicious because this is what I really wanted to hear; am I deluding myself or is this really what me guides advise me?
Spider, perhaps a little out of patience with my doubts, then turns to me. She is about as big as a hippopatamus, broad and massive. She bites me hard right in my stomach! She holds on and chews for a minute. It hurts, but not unbearably. It feels however like it is kindly meant. From her jaws flows into me a huge wave of tingling energy. I feel myself swell like a glowing balloon, until I am bigger that the entire clearing and I cannot see my feet. But I feel very excited and happy, and full of power. I can feel the enegy building up in me; I put out my hands and it pours out through my hands as a white light.
Spider says that this means that I have the power in myself to turn the situation at work; I have a gift for programming and can help to motivate the others if neccessary. That I can make a success of whatever job I am in; I can stay where I am and make it work, or if I choose I can find a new place at make a success there. That I am free to choose, but I don't need to worry too much about the future of the company.
I leave them with many thanks, and return.
I stop to talk with them, and ask them if there is anything I need to do for them. I was just reading of someone else's journey, where they negotiated about an offering. Should I be making any particular offerings? They respond that each person finds the way that works best for them, that there are many paths and modes of relating to the spirit world. Some people find a traditional framework of offerings or rituals beneficial or even essential, but for others this would not work. I should just listen to my heart to see if there is anything I need to do. However, not that I mention it, I HAD made a promise to the Greenman several months ago to get a plaque and hang it at the barn, in gratitude for his help. I still have not done this. They explain that it is not that anyone is angry or hurt about this, but that it is an unfulfilled promise and that it will burden me and interfere with my progress. I recommit to obtaining the plaque soon, and they allow me to move on.
When I arrive at the meadow, the Tree is there close by. He immediately reaches down a large knarled hand and clasps my hand, in a very firm and reassuring grip. He pours lots of comfort and energy into me; I relax and let the fear drain out and let the healing energy fill me. I feel very comforted and loved. I spend several minutes just soaking in this, letting it heal me and wash out negative energy.
Then I ask the Tree, and anyone else who is listening, if there is anything I should do about my work situation. Spider responds by giving me a blast of energy, that makes me feel light and happy, enlarged and powerful, but my feet remain planted in the earth. I gather that this means that I can stay where I am, that the situation will be healed and we will grow and prosper again. Part of me is suspicious because this is what I really wanted to hear; am I deluding myself or is this really what me guides advise me?
Spider, perhaps a little out of patience with my doubts, then turns to me. She is about as big as a hippopatamus, broad and massive. She bites me hard right in my stomach! She holds on and chews for a minute. It hurts, but not unbearably. It feels however like it is kindly meant. From her jaws flows into me a huge wave of tingling energy. I feel myself swell like a glowing balloon, until I am bigger that the entire clearing and I cannot see my feet. But I feel very excited and happy, and full of power. I can feel the enegy building up in me; I put out my hands and it pours out through my hands as a white light.
Spider says that this means that I have the power in myself to turn the situation at work; I have a gift for programming and can help to motivate the others if neccessary. That I can make a success of whatever job I am in; I can stay where I am and make it work, or if I choose I can find a new place at make a success there. That I am free to choose, but I don't need to worry too much about the future of the company.
I leave them with many thanks, and return.
It was not exactly a comfortable journey, but I did find out what I needed.
